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11/17/00
I logged in to the game to find that an object
I had coded a few hours earlier was no longer
working, due to some unexpected changes to the
game code. This object is going to be needed for
use in a roleplaying plot tomorrow, and it made
me nervous that the code upon which it depended
kept breaking. Standing together in a virtual
room, I bitched about it to Pär. He wasn't the
one who'd made these code changes; one of his
coding minions was. However, the minion wasn't
around in the game at that moment for me to ask
him about it directly, so Pär got to catch my
ire.
Pär has a reasonable but finite amount of
tolerance for listening to me bitch about buggy
code, and I had already used up most of it
earlier this morning. When it quickly became
clear to both of us that I was unable to do this
work without a lot of frustration, and unable to
be that frustrated without bitching about it, I
logged out and walked away from the computer.
I do get very frustrated over bugs, but that
wasn't the main thing on my mind. I had been
planning to drive to the lab and take my blood
sugar test, which I was supposed to have done in
my 7th month of pregnancy. It's a standard test
to check glucose levels and make sure I'm not
diabetic or anything. It's not a big deal, but it
requires a certain amount of time -- you have to
be there for over an hour -- and I just hadn't
gotten around to making the time for it. I had
decided to finally get it done it this afternoon,
but... the day wasn't working out that way.
Pär must have sensed it was more than the
code that was bothering me. A few minutes after I
quit the game, I got a phone call from him.
"What's up? Why are you so crabby?"
"I just called UniLab and they said I'm
supposed to come in an hour after I've eaten,
which I knew, but then they told me that once I
get there, they give me some liquid glucose stuff
to drink. Then I have to sit and wait for another
hour, before they draw my blood. And during that
time I can't eat anything either."
"So what's the problem?"
Muffled sobbing on my end of the line. "Oh
man, I'm crying. Why am I crying? What the hell
is wrong with me?"
His voice softened. "There's nothing
wrong with you. You're pregnant."
"I know, but... jeez, you'd think I could
overcome it!"
"So. Why are you crying?"
"It's so embarassing."
"What is it, honey?"
"...I don't think I can wait another hour
to eat."
A burst of laughter from both ends of the
line, mixed with sobs on my end.
"I was all set to go to the lab an hour
ago, but then my mother called..."
"Oh dear. Difficult conversation?"
"It was... very brief. But confusing, and it
left me kind of miserable. The problem is that
within twenty seconds of talking
to her, I started to get really bad lava tum."
("Lava tum" is our name for the
heartburn I've been getting since my third
trimester began.)
"Oh no."
"Yeah, it was hard to take, and as soon
as I got off the phone, I had to go eat a yogurt
right away to calm down my stomach. So then I had
to wait another hour. And now it's an hour later,
and I still have lava tum, and it hurts, and I
need some food to settle it down, and, and... I'm
hungry, and I don't want to sit for another hour
without putting something in my stomach."
"Just go take the test on Monday instead."
"I'm already a month late in taking this
damn test. I have an appointment with our doctor
on Monday morning. She's going to be mad at me."
"She won't be mad at you."
"She really wants the test results."
"Well... tell her it's a dumb test and
you don't want to take it!"
"Yeah, that strategy always worked well
for me in college."
"You're not getting graded on this
test. It's no big deal, let it go for today. You
can take it on Monday."
I took a deep breath, let it out. "Okay.
I will take it on Monday." Just saying the
words, I felt better.
"And I'll go in with you."
"Sweetheart. That's a wasted couple of
hours for you, there's no need."
"I'll go with you!"
"You'd just be sitting there, waiting.
This test isn't scary or anything, it's only
going to be boring."
"We'll sit there together. It'll be fun."
"No, really, you're such a darling but
this isn't one of those times when I feel like I
need support; there's no sense in us both wasting
an afternoon on it."
"All right then, you'll go by yourself on
Monday. And now you can relax and not worry about
having to take care of it today."
"Yes. I've been stressing about work all
day, trying to get stuff done so I could have
time for the test. It's a relief to let that
pressure go."
"Good. You should indulge yourself. Drink
milk, eat yummy foods, and relax. You can watch
some Blake's 7 episodes!"
(A friend has loaned us his collection of this
delightful old TV series on videotape, and we're
working our way through the first season.)
"But," Pär added, "you have to
promise to remember everything that happens, so
you can summarize them for me afterwards."
Renewed muffled sobbing on my end of the line.
"Oh, Karen..."
"Now I'm crying because you're so kind."
I could hear his smile. "It'll be okay,
honey."
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